GAMES

This will be one my favorite games of all. Even more when there's huge group of ppl...and you involved SAKE shots you really have to try to play it!!! even if you don't involved sake shots in the game it's still very FUN.

losing!!!

So Julyssa,Leiian and i we're playing board games which we love. So happens Leiian starts to get really into it. like a real competition! But for some reason Julyssa is having the best of luck and she's way ahead of us! Well Leiian is getting close to the finish line and his so excited cause his almost there...what do you know is Julyssa's turn and she happens to win! She was so happy it was her first time ever winning!! Well unlike Leiian he was so upset i've never seen him so mad...I couldn't belive it! he was so mad at Julyssa he though that she had cheated. It was so crushing yet funny seeing him being so mad for losing! I try to explain to him that is ok to lose sometimes and if you he really wants it, he will have fight for it again no matter how long it takes! But of course his little and he wont take no or losing for the answer! Kids can be so funny at times!!!

Just thoughs!

THOUGHTS

In three words I can sum up everything that I learned about life, "It goes on." Today is one of those days when it's a minute away from raining and there's this electricity in the air, you can almost hear it. I can smell the rain almost. For fifteen minutes I stood on my window waiting to hear the first drops. There's nothing more relaxing then the sound of a thunder storm. It distracts me from thinking so much. As I paused into a long stare I knew there was this entire life behind things, and... this incredibly benevolent force, that wanted me to know there was no reason to be afraid, ever. I thought about my life and how crazy it has been. So many experiences that I wish I could capture every moment on video so I never forget. Video's a poor excuse, I know. But it helps me remember... and I need to remember... Sometimes there's so much beauty in the world I feel like I can't take it, like my heart's going to cave in. To understand that there's no real perfect life helps me appreciate things that much more. Nobody, as long as he moves about among the chaotic currents of life, is without trouble. And if that were the case, the word "happiness" would lose its meaning if it were not balanced by some sadness. When the going gets tough, make yourself realize that no matter what your problem is, someone is and always will be fighting a harder battle. Understanding this helps me appreciate the simple things. If I could give any advice from my own experiences it would be that tears don't help problems and whining won't make things better. Have faith but understand that faith makes things possible, not easier. Have hope but understand without doing anything nothing gets done.Never compromise your standards for anyone, do it for you. Remember that laughter makes the world go round. Beware of the person who has nothing to lose, see through the problem to find the solution. Don't make promises that you can't keep. Keep in mind, those who gossip to you will gossip about you. Say only what you mean, and don't believe everything that you hear because some day the story will be about you!Everyday is a gift, even if it sucks. Count your blessings, not your troubles. Never waste an opportunity to tell someone that you love them, because you never know what tomorrow has in store for you. Don't be afraid of falling in love. Isn't that why we are here in the first place? Think about it. Give people a second chance, because no one is perfect. Love all that you can, give all that you have, smile away your days, and try to dream away your nights.I came out of a very dark point in my life and it has become easier because I got out of my own way; I started to take less things so seriously and remember that really very few things in life are in my control. The rest of it sort of happens, and my job is to recognize opportunities and navigate through them. Everything falls into place eventually. I get so anxious about things and then I think of all the joy i've had in my life and then it flows through me like rain and I can't feel anything but gratitude for every single moment of my crazy little life

XOXO

BLAME

Every time in your life there's someone to else to blame for. Any thing wrong or bad. they did to you, or life. But can we ever have ownership and say "it's my fault". Can we ever blame ourselves?

Is hard to ever blame ourselves. For some reason we always tent to live in denial. For what, so we can show society we're perfect. Sorry but God created a life for us to learn from our own mistakes. Why do we have so much pride to say "sorry it was my fault" those words are so simple. Yet is so difficult to bring them out of our mouth.

Well life is tough. But you pick your self up from those bumpy rides. Honestly when something goes wrong into my life. I blame myself for it. Because I knew I'm the only one that can decide how and when I want things in my life. But for some reason when it comes to relationship is so hard. You know that if your relationship is bad and yet you give it another shot, deep down inside you feel that it will not change. Yet we still go through it and we get hurt badly. So what's left? Well is simple we blame the other.

Perhaps if we sit down and analyze that it was really us. For going to the same path again.
But when love is in the way there's no way in hell you can say no to another chance! Therefore we realize as much we love our significant other. That it is really ourselves for letting go that far. Than you're stuck, because you don't want to leave the other person. Because you don't want them to think that you gave up on them. But really you're leaving the relationship because you keep on doing the same thing. You're tired of hurting yourself.

After all you did for them even if was worth it or not. We learn that our love life doesn't have to be perfect. Maybe next time it will be less complicated. But you learn how to blame yourself for hurting yourself. Really all you did was learned. But what happens when you don't? You keep doing it over and over. What do you count on? What do you do when someone else hurt you, and yet you know is your fault for letting it happened? How do you explain it to them, that is not hard to for them to include you in their lives? Nevertheless all we have is nothing but to blame ourselves.

Soulmate

Soulmate (or soul mate) is a term sometimes used to designate someone with whom one has a feeling of deep and natural affinity, friendship, love, intimacy, sexuality, and/or compatibility. A related concept is that of the twin flame or twin soul – thought to be the ultimate soulmate, the one and only other half of one's soul, for which all souls are driven to find and join. However, not everyone who uses these terms intends them to carry such mystical connotations. someone you love, and would do anything for, and someone who loves you, and would do anything for you. And in that love, nothing is required for either person, because everything is already given. You love them more than anything in the world and could not live without them.

For years we've known that a soul mate is your other half. So is like someone is holding the key to your heart. Well so therefore there is someone out there for us right? If so where is It.? Don't we complete each other? In order to have a "soul mate" you need to feel complete, so that you can share that with your soul mate. You need to know your soul within.

Soul mate two little words. But a big concept, so if so you find your soul mate. What if it doesn't work out? Does that mean he/she is not your soul mate? Than the next person that comes in your life, does that become your soul mate? As we get older and wiser, and you never meet your soul mate does that mean you were never meant to find one?

After all who wants to go on with their lives old and alone? If feels good to have someone to lean on. To laugh and cry with, someone to be there for your bad and good moments of your life. but hey who said it can only be the opposite sex. You can have a soul mate in a friend. You know they will always be there for you. In life you will always have the one good friend it can be a man or a woman. You can meet different people yet you still have that good friend beside you. When you come to realize that's the, soul mate you were looking for. Or you can really find the one soul mate that will turn your whole world in to beauty fairytale.

I believe there is only one soul mate in your life. Yet you can fall in love again and again. But not the same way you did the last time. You will never have all the integrity that you did when you were last in love. You'll evantually find your one true love. Therefore i believe that's your soul mate. It will hunt you down until your last day.

LOVE?

What is true love??

What is true love?? What does it mean to be in love?? How does it feel to wake up to the one you suppose to cherish for the rest of your life?? How does the man get on one knee knowing the person that he put that ring would love him for eternity or she will do the same? When people say true love is always blinded by those who do not look for it… I believe that statement is true to a certain extent. I believe when you go looking for it, it comes, but that's the one you intend on being with for the rest of your life, you just don't know what is going to happen. They say that one in ten marriages don't last past the first year, you know this when you are going to take the biggest step in your life, but it doesn't affect the way you feel. How can you say that you Love one person for the rest of your life when that person doesn't try to give you a chance to show what they mean to you, the man think when you take that step to get down on that one knee, and ask that person to marry him that they are going to say "yes", but what happens if the worse comes out and they say no. The thing about it is that true love doesn't just come from anyone, you can love so many people in a life time and never find that one true love!! What happens though when you try so much to find that one true love, an you never find that one person that you can spend the rest of your life with to cherrish and hold forever till death do you part. Those words should mean so much to every person that says them but most times they don't, then ask yourself a question what happens when you are married and then you divorce, can you or do you think that you are ever going to be whole agian, I'm here to tell you that your not going to be whole again you may say you are but when that happens your life may seem simple but guess what you still will always have that in the back of your head that you are not doing something right. But my question to you is what happens when so many people that you see and date and try to give your heart to, just keep on droping you and stepping over your heart what are you going to do then??? Most people think that they can just keep on going and going, but the problem is when are you going to give up, I know on what matters the most which is living life to the fullest and not worrying about what is going to happen from one day to the next, now you ask yourself is this all worth trying to find that one true love??? My answer to that is this a very wise person once told me that there is four kinds of people in this world, the first type of person is the person that is always searching for there one true love and they never find them, the second kind of person is the person that is always searching for that person and doesn't think that they found that person and then before they know it that person comes and goes, the third kind of person is that person that is always searching for the one that they will spend the rest of there life with and plan and simply lets that person go, the last kind of person that there is, will be that person that is always searching for that one true love and they find that person and they spend the rest of there life with that person to live happyly ever after. Another thing that you should ask yourself is can you play games to the point with one person that you can't let that person go, that you are constently thinking about that person and try to do what ever you can to keep that person around I believe that, is everyone's intentions till they find out whether or not that they can love that person or not. so my question to you is, is this all worth it to find your one true love???

My Heart

My heart

I treasure every moment as if it was my last... I give you the world's most valuable possessions anyone could ever own including my heart... I would never hurt you I would never lie to you, I only love you and please you to the fullest... I go beyond any person before me and prove that I really meant it when I say I love you… I wouldn't tell you one thing and it really meant something else, I would tell you things that would put a smile on your face an you'll have that comfort from me at the same time... every time I hold you in my arms it seems like its our first time holding each other instead of our last.. My heart pound faster cause every second I'm afraid of losing you... I just want you to know that I'm going to be here for you and if you need help or to talk to someone and cry on someone's shoulder I'm going to be here for you, I'm sorry for falling for you ...... at night I lay there thinking about the day I had with you, thinking about how wonderful you are… that smile of yours an how I made you laugh an had a good time around me for that time that we spent together.. I don't care about your body or how you are... I respect your body with every ounce of breath in my lungs… that's the first thing people see when they see attraction I don't think about that, I see what comes out of your mouth.. a very down to earth man, someone who knows what his reason is in his life an how far his mind is willing to go… I wouldn't have sex with you I would make love to you, I would kiss you in places only your mind an heart can think of... I felt like you were the person that would bring me to really understand the true meaning of being in love an actually know what it feels to be held for a reason, to be kiss like it was your first time kiss… but as time goes on all I can do is watch an make you happy , because I don't know how far we are going to go, its going to be ok I tell myself there are more out there, but there's not, not a special person like you, I want to be with you…you're the one person I believe can make my life complete so I say this… I realize that you have a lot of things that I love, and I understand that you will forever be the one for me. I just needed to get this off my mind and chest, the one thing I really want in life.. the one thing, that I wish that I could or have all I want … Is you to know how much I really love you